Yesterday I asked Bryson if he would help keep me accountable for working out and eating healthy because I have really not been doing good lately. Like eat a whole box of thin mints bad. I'm not saying that happened but I'm not saying it didn't either. I have asked him quite a bit to help keep me motivated but it always ends with him saying somethings in the lines of, "Babe you look great to me blah blah blah" I still think that he thinks that I look fine but this spring break has been tough for me, I've gotten a cold, food poisoning and yesterday I was peeing blood. So yeah, I'm over spring break. Not to mention I have felt super sluggish and I know that I can at least attribute that to how horrible I've been eating. If I'm going to have a million things go wrong why add to it?
I have to say for myself that even though I have felt like crap this week I have made it to the gym 5 times (so. freaking. sore.) and Bryson, some friends and I went on a 14 mile bike ride which was a total blast. Which is all good and well but I've gained 5 pounds in a super short time and the firefighter banquet is coming up and I'd really like to feel good about myself even though I know I won't look different because it's next week.
I have really been working on love and self acceptance lately but it's hard to get out and love life if I feel awful. After I explained all this to Bryson we woke up this morning and he decided we are going to go run for 100 minutes. Uh what? Screw off. I get bored after like 10 minutes but we'll see! I'm sure he'll make me end up doing it the whole time so I'll update you all on how it goes. If you don't hear from me, assume I'm dead.